He's Excited to See Me

I am so excited!! For the first time in 140 days, I am going to see and hug and kiss my son! He's in the USAF and is in training in Florida. While that's not all that far away - six hours driving time is huge to someone like me who suffers from multiple autoimmune disorders. Sitting in a car for long periods of time is absolutely excruciating for me. All that being said ... I would do it in a heartbeat to see my son - if only for a few minutes/hours. I love him that much!!

I don't sleep well (ever) so when I got up to get ready for work this morning my body ached, my mind was fuzzy and I so wanted to roll over and try again to sleep ... but then I remembered ... James is coming home today. I don't know for sure what time he will be home (it doesn't matter), but he said he'll be here! My heart skipped a beat, and I got out of that bed (body snaps and cracks included) and began the morning routine. Put Tyson outside, make the coffee, fix Tyson's breakfast, drink my water, take meds, bring Tyson in, grab my coffee and get back upstairs to find something suitable to wear, see Tyson has come back upstairs, put him on the bed while I get in the shower ... etc. etc. Turn on YouTube to one of my favorite speakers to preach to me while I'm in the shower.

On my drive to the office this morning it hit me that James will be home tonight. What should I cook for him? What goodies will I bake? O my goodness! I'm so excited to see that sweet rugged face of his. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks!

O God ... is that how YOU feel about us? Are you excited about seeing us? Can it be that the maker of the universe is anticipating being reunited with us the way I am anticipating being reunited with my son? I think it must be so! As a parent, we give up many things to raise children but think about what God gave up for us! He gave up His only son to bring us - adopt us - into His family! Tears began to sneak down my cheeks as this settled into my mind and heart and as I admitted to Him I haven't been as excited about the return of Jesus as I should be.

My prayer today: O God renew that excitement over your love in me. My finite mind has trouble processing the depth of your love, but renew the excitement in me. I want to be as excited to see you as you are to see me. Renew my first love for you!