Thursday, January 31, 2019

Restoration from fatigue

Sharing my prayer this morning...

Dear God, at times my life seems to be too much. Too full. Too demanding. Too consuming. Everything feels necessary, even important, but weariness creeps across my body and soul like storm clouds gathering in a clear sky. As my body is depleted of energy, my mind loses interest in what normally enthuses me. My tired soul sags as if it were a balloon losing its air. Often - TOO often I feel so spent - so exhausted that even restorative sleep eludes me.

Help me sort the truly important from what only seems important. Give me the courage to say no to what drains rather than feeds me. Help me find brief moments to sit in perfect stillness while you massage my soul. And when I go to my sleeping place, wrap your darkness around me like the softest blanket, so that I might sleep peacefully in your embrace knowing you've already worked it all out - knowing it's not on my shoulders - but yours.

Wednesday, January 30, 2019

Remind me , Father


Today, God...

Help me remember that the jerk who cut me off in traffic last nights is a single mother who worked ten hours that day and was rushing home to cook dinner, help with homework, do the laundry and spend a few precious moments with her children.

Bring to my mind often that the pierced, tatooed, disinterested young man who can't make change correctly at McDonald's is a worried 19-year-old college student, balancing his apprehension over final exams with his fear of not getting his student loans for next semester.

Remind me that the scary looking bum, begging for money in the same spot every day (who really ought to get a job!) is a slave to addictions that I can only imagine in my worst nightmare.

Cause me to reflect that the old couple, walking annoyingly slow through the store aisles and blocking our shopping progress are savoring this moment, knowing that, based on the biopsy report got back last week, this will be the last year they go shopping together.

Heavenly Father, remind me each day that, of all the gifts you give me, the greatest gift is love. It is not enough to share that love with those I hold dear. Open my heart - not just to those who are close to me - but to all humanity. Teach me to love the way you love. Open my eyes to see people the way you see them. Let me be slow in judgment and quick with forgiveness and patience, empathy and love.

Monday, June 18, 2018

Cast the net one more time!

I AM a woman often of little faith and lousy disposition. So when things go wrong, I not only get discouraged, but I am prone to howl long and loud at the moon, the stars and God Himself.

I was lying in bed the other night, deeply discouraged and frustrated by setbacks that made life look dark and hopeless. But then my mind, for whatever reason, heard and fixed on the sound of a boat, a small boat - the old wooden type that groan and creak with rigging that snaps in the wind and sway with the water - yeah, the type that would have been back in Bible days. And I thought of my favorite disciple, Peter. Yep, the rambunctious and spontaneous one. I could almost audibly hear the words - "Cast your net one more time." I groaned and sighed and muttered, weary, tired, but back in the game of life again. I don't know where God is leading me, but I guess I must follow...and be patient.

My point? Trust in the Lord. He does not abandon us or leave us without guidance. He answers prayers and listens when we talk, even when it is in the form of howling at the moon. Enjoy this day. Every one is a special gift from God.

When he had finished speaking, he said to Simon, “Put out into deep water, and let down the nets for a catch.” Simon answered, “Master, we’ve worked hard all night and haven’t caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down the nets.” Luke 5:4-5 (NIV)

Thursday, June 14, 2018

Quit Picking on God

I for one love to have it both ways. (Don't we all?) When things go great, I want the credit, and any "Thank you, God" I might utter is pretty knee-jerk, sort of like a "God bless you" after a sneeze. But when things go wrong ... watch out, God! "Oh God, why are you doing this to me? What do you want from me?"

My challenge is to remember that it's ALL a blessing - from the glorious sunrise to the dark and wild storm; from the sweet smile from a dear one to the broken promise from a trusted friend; from the joy that bubles up from a hard-fought victory to the heart-wrenching pain from a blind-sided setback.

My point? Quit picking on God. If He's good, He's good (all the time)! A little trust. A little faith. Enjoy the day...and ALL its blessings!

"Some people ruin themselves by their own stupid actions and then blame the Lord." Prov 19:3 (GNT)

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

That's Not My Jesus

In 1998, an Aryan Nation security guard, outside the compound founded by Richard Butler, their white supremacy leader, shot at a woman, drove her off the road, and assaulted both her and her son, justified by a tainted mix of nazi-ism and religion.

That's not my Jesus.

During college I studied how the Aryan Nation hates mixed marriages. I studied how shockingly, this sect twisted scripture and used MY God to justify their so-called elitism. They called anyone not white from Satan, and those light-eyed straight from the angelic throne room of God.

On June 10, 1999, the Aryan Nation marched through Coeur d'Alene making public their distorted belief system, publicly trying to shame those not looking like them, while exulting their own twisted ideations and worth.

That's not my Jesus.

And if we are not smart Biblical scholars ourselves, if we don't wield the sword, soak ourselves in scripture, asking for the Holy Spirit to guide us ...

What is the difference between any kind of racial supremacy, and "us vs them" mentality on any stage or context?

After all, people use education, religion or any other platform they can find to divide and elevate themselves by comparison. They try to separate worth and inherent value, claiming a few chosen and others cut off or dismissed based on wealth or appearance, position or pretense, color or so-called spiritual giftedness?

I mean, when did we get so arrogant thinking it's okay to separate or segregate while blaming or excluding others?

That's not my Jesus.

A man planted a vineyard and set up a hedge around it. It was HIS vineyard, yet by grace, He LET others live and work on it. Then he went far away. The season came to collect the fruit from this vineyard. So the OWNER sent a servant, but the wine-dressers beat and ridiculed him, sending him away empty handed. Another servant was sent to collect what was HIS, the owner's, but the same thing happened to him. Finally, the owner sent His son. "Surely they will respect him." But sure enough those living on the owner's territory somehow dismissed the authority of the owner and viciously KILLED the owner's son as well.

What is this owner to do? What provoked the wine-dressers to act this way? (Mark 12:1-9) What spirit makes a renter bold and arrogant, audacious enough to think they can over-run the owner and keeper of his own land?

That's not my Jesus.

My Jesus is a man, who confronted racial divide. He walked into Samaria to a land that the Jews at the time didn't like or even dare walk through. (John 4) The Jews felt superior and wanted nothing to do with this mixed breed, the Samaritans. They were viewed as not chosen or worthy. But Jesus saw the need and became overcome with compassion and radical love for the lady standing by the well. He knew she needed hope and healing, so He walked towards her - not away from her.

Jesus reached her, not loudly, with disciples watching, but in a quiet one-on-one relationship, approaching her with truth AND compassion. He kept interacting, talking and communicating long enough for her to see her own sin and for this Savior to meet the thirst that led her to this well all along during the day.

Jesus was a magnet of grace - not a hater who condemned sins violently. He once said, "He who is without sin cast the first stone." (John 8:7) And yet TODAY, so many STILL STAND staring with hate boldly, holding their stones.

Out of love Jesus compelled this sinner to repent and turn towards His perfect love and grace. Then she ran to her village - leading everyone back to Jesus.

That's my Jesus.

Jesus saw the outcast. He didn't chase them down and beat them. He walked with compassion even stepping where other Pharisee didn't approve of. He healed on the Sabbath, despite religion's rules. He met with the sinners. He touched the lepers and those shunned by the masses.

That's my Jesus.

Jesus entered the battle to release people to purpose and freedom. He confronted sin but never diminished the God-image spirit in another person. When Peter cut off the ear of the soldier, Jesus didn't rally and chant and condone his act of violence. Instead, Jesus did what came naturally. He brought healing. He repaired what was broken. He replaced the ear and offered his accuser wholeness.

That's my Jesus.

William Wilberforce was a philanthropist, English politician, and a man determined to fight to his death to stop the slave trade movement.

When Wilberforce became a Christian in 1785, his heart was moved, his lifestyle changed, and he experienced true compassion and a determination to create real reform, leaving a legacy that eventually put a halt to the slave trade.

That's my Jesus.

Injustice, self-righteousness, hate, superiority, wanting our own way, flaunting our 'rights', trying to surpass the supremacy and authority of God...that is and always has been the artillery of Satan.

Yet, let's face it...There will always be those that DEMAND the owner's vineyard. The truth is God is Ruler and King, Maker and Owner, and He will never relinquish His dominion or supremacy...though Satan even tempted Jesus during His forty days in the desert.

Sin has wormed its way in ... let's call it what it is, because scripture has been taken not only from our courts and our schools - the hearts of men want their own way and will do anything to get it.

As Americans we are a country founded on truth, Biblical, authentic Christian principles, "One Country, Under God" for the sake of freedom, not forced vindication or the rights of a few who think they are better than the rest! Yet when we doubt God is just and act like Saul, taking our destiny into our own hands - we divide this nation. We separate based on color and religion, strength or weaknesses, poverty, and materialism...

And that, my friend, is a terrible travesty that breaks the very heart of God.

Let's question where our own minds have become enslaved to the enemy of our souls, lying and deceiving us, saying we must have our own say. Let's be brave, asking questions like "How have we contributed to this chaos and division?"...Maybe not in big loud boisterous protesting ways, but even in small subtle ways that might have resulted in dividing and separating individuals.

Like Him, let's walk into another's territory, always with love and compassion and grace.

I love my African American friends, my Latino friends, my middle eastern and oriental friends and the array of colorful children that come with - from mocha to caramel, to light and dark brown.

To me, this is Jesus.

To me the world is not made of varying skin colors, have or have nots, or grandiose thinking of who is supposedly better or more superior. We are born and die the same. We bleed the same. We all breathe this air, having "Ruach Elohim", the very breath of God moving through our being.

We all deserve respect and courtesy, patience and kindness, understanding and empathy.

One nation. Under God. A God who loves. A Savior who set aside HIS rights to die on a cross, out of mercy and grace. Regardless of what you saw in Charlottesville, what you saw in Charleston, what you saw in Ukraine and other states and nations  ...that is my Jesus!



Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Wednesday's Word

God is doing a new thing.
Can you sense it?
May you lean in and listen
to that still small voice
and take your next steps
with a heart of faith and
expectancy.
May Jesus Himself give
you a fresh vision for
what breakthrough looks
like so you will not lose
heart or give up when it
seems the battle rages on.
Soon, and very soon, you 
will see and know that His
promises are true for you.
Strengthen yourself in the
Lord today.
Remind yourself who you
are and whose you are.
Recite His promises and
rehearse His faithfulness.
He's been good and He'll
be good again.
Walk forward in faith.
God bless you, my friend.


Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Tuesday's Pause

Father in heaven, I pause from my regular routine, and I look to you. Fan the flame within me, Lord! Restore life to the gifts you've imparted to me! Open my eyes to see evidences of your glory everywhere I turn. Put faith in my heart to step out, to be a necessary miracle in somebody's life today. And as I wait for my own personal breakthroughs, work through me to help someone else break through to their next place of promise. I love you, Lord. I need you every hour. And I have you every moment of every hour. Truly I am blessed. Amen